My chest is on fire!

 

May 13, 2022

Yeah, it's a stolen picture, but it's pretty. Since getting off work last night, I've been in a flare. At least I think that's what's going on. I'm exhausted. I hurt. I can't sleep, but I want to. I am sitting in my chair mindlessly with my laptop on my legs researching.. surfing... looking up stuff.. what stuff? does it really matter? no. I want to go to bed. But that requires energy. My chest is burning like hell. Am I having a heart attack? I dunno.. maybe. Would I tell any patient I treat to call 911? absolutely. Am I going to? No. Why not? Because I'm not worried about it. For many reasons- if I die, I go with my Jesus! It's a win for me! I've watched people die from heart attacks. It's quick- it's easy. It's over. Am I scared? Nope. If I call, then that gets scary. Wilson EMS comes, takes me to Wilson Hospital- NO THANK YOU. Do I wake Tony? Nope. So, here I sit. 

Anyway, it's probably just a flare.. what kind? Who knows.. Fibro? Probably.. Covid?? possibly.. both- likely. For now, I"m going to get a drink, take some muscle relaxants and go to bed. Maybe I'll see you in the AM. If not, it will be ok.

I should probably add that my throat and glands are also very sore. I feel like I'm sick. Who knows? Going to bed now... it's 430am. Good night!